thesinger
thelyrics
thechords
themelody
foryou
you're my song.


it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so how can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
and the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade.


if i ain't got you|12:00 AM|



Friday, June 13, 2003



hEya~ juZ wokE up anD finished leaving a mEsSage in sHaNNen's b|og~ weLl.. I toked to YaN ronG oN dA pHone unTil like 4.30 am? yEp.. tOked aloT of rubbIsh.. from ***** things to ****** things.. weLL guess loR~ hEhehe.. hmM.. lAter goignt o meet up with yaZuka and walk around.. bUt gOing to SIR building to take photo. Y aLL the way to lAvendEr? wEll.. the photo quality is good & I think I look bettA in therE~ hehehe.. alright.. I am suppose to bathe now.. but noW I am still like typing over here?

yAn rOng went to extract her wisdom tooTh yesterdaY.. or should I say teeth? well.. kInda poor thinG eh? cannot eat soliD food only liquid fOod.. (Like baby like that).. hahah.. aCtually wanted to go and eat the famous yOu tiao, miAn xIan and guO tie iN gEylang with her.. but then hAi~ bEcoz of her "plight".. hAve to delAy lorhz~ tAke cAre eh yAn ronG!

last niTe.. I dreamt of mr tEo.. hahah.. dUnNoe why? mAybe I miSs him too much? cOz I will onLy meet him on mOnday~ wEll... gotta go noW bAby!




if i ain't got you|1:49 PM|





Finally!! gEt my b|og dOne~ dId the "sHouT ouT" thinGie.. but now it is called the duSt sPrinKles.. yep~ wAnted to make it free of error yA see... but this is not the enD of iT yet!

kRïStå hUngRy~


if i ain't got you|1:03 AM|



Thursday, June 12, 2003



I pAsSed mY aDvAnced tHeorY liaO~ yIpee! wELL.. quite a number of people want a ridE fRom me aFter if I've got my license~ weLL.. say until like I will get my license sO faSt.. who knows that I fAiL? anD fAil lOtsa tiMes! wELL.. mR tEo said I should have more confidence in myself.. I know.. bUt I've triEd to have confidence.. but in the end.. I got something which is really uneXpectEd. I should like be prepared for the worst. dUn yA thiNk?

qUiTe a nUmbEr of mY frieNds loSt confIdence in lOve.. I doN't know if it will ever happen to me. cOz they've claimed that they treated so well to theiR partnErs but yEt they gOt noThing.. and dOn't appreciate. tHen they wilL say that they will not love anyonE anyMore or treat somEone so weLL anymore. wELL.. I finD that it is kinDa unfair to the one you are really gonnA spend wiTh for the rest of your life, aNd it will become a routine and he/ sHe will say theY spend so much timE on U yEt that gEt thiS iN return. iT iS saD ah? I gUess.. this is juZ puRe humaN reactiOn. hMm.. as waD some pPl say.. gOd noRmally let us meet a few peopLe before we meet the righT onE, mAybe that is quite truE. sO kEep sEaRchIng pEople! wIshinG somE luCk to pEople.. those who have beEn hURt in lOve~



if i ain't got you|10:44 PM|





yAY! sHaNnEn pAsSed hEr tHeoRy tEsT! nOw iT's mY tuRn.. hAi~ waiTing eAgErly.. cOz when I pAsS.. I can already book my pRacTiAL tEsT.. sinCe my leSsOns are goNnA eNd sOoN. I hEaRd that pRactiCal tEsTs are only on weekdays.. so there might be a possibility that I will misS onE dAY oF cLass.. iFnot moRe (lEt's sAy I didn't pass the first time!)

yEsTerday I watched Bill & Ted's Excellent Adventure.. starring kEanU rEeVes oF cOz.. but a younG vErsIoN oF hIm.. the show was cool.. hahaha.. hE lOok kInda gOfFy, duNnoe whether is this the right description to call him. =) wEll.. eNouGh oF tHis.. I fInaLly did my simUlAtor tRaiNing yesterday.. well, it is kinda machine to teach you how to use auTo cAr. iT waS daMn sHoiK! hehehe.. can't really wait to drivE an aUto cAr. sIncE so mAny pEoPle askEd me wAd car am I gonnA buY.. lEt me answEr you here. I miGht not gEt a nEw cAr.. cOz my brOther is going to go overseas nexT yEar and no one will uSe hiS cAr.. so I will be the onE.. kInda unFair ritE? bUt bEtTa than nOthing! sEems like I have difficulty to wake up before 12 noW.. this is bAd.. I hate it.. cOz when schOoL starts.. I have to re-aDjuSt again~

kRïStå dReAmT oF kEaNu rEeVes! sEriOus!



if i ain't got you|2:34 PM|





aLamK!!! tYped sOmethIng liAo.. but it didn't even comE out! sEE the sTupId eMpTy enTrY bElow? aH~ can't deletE too.. bUt life still has to go oN! dOn't wAnt to rE-tYpe liAo..


if i ain't got you|1:56 AM|






if i ain't got you|1:42 AM|



Wednesday, June 11, 2003



*oUCh! mAny moSqUitOes bItEs on me... scratching all niTe.. tHat's Y I juZ woke up. yEstErday didn't say anything much coZ I was juZ fiXing my b|og. nOw dOn't feel like fixing.. buT juZ to tiRed.. or rather too lazY. gUeSs I do not really have much sleep these few days coZ too buSy to be outside and woke up earlier than my expEcted time to meEt mY friEnds.. hEhe.. YeSterdaY, LinDy, yAn RonG, ceLeStE and me went for a 3 hour kTv then we went windOw shOpPing.. it was quite fuN.. and I finaLly saw who is KiKi (ceLeSte's gAy bOsS). wEll.. it is true that he has a nice buTt and he is very clean and well shaven. wOh~ neAt, that's wad I would say.. yAp.. then we hads dinnEr in sAkae sUshi.. yEap.. I know we were suppose to go juRong water works.. but we decidEd to go kTv first.. then next tueS will be there then.

tIme fiLes when I had my driving lesSons these few days.. cOZ mR tEo and I had quite alot of fUn~ heY din't be mistaken.. we only toK cRap! haha.. lAst niTe.. I even offered him a butt scratch.. hahaha! (IT WAS ONLY A JOKE!) then he was quiet then.. and smile.. he said that he doN't minD, but mY pArEnts, my brOther and my bF will mind.. hA! I know it soundS stupiD to you all.. but then yA know.. it is betta to have some fuN whenever you have leSsOns.. it helPs.. both in uR drivIng skillS and rElationshIP (cOnsider how mucH timE I have to spend with him?) dUh~

weLL.. sHannEn is going off to jaPan.. and bEnjI still in auStraliA and now.. 2 of my the other friends are going overseas! linDy and yAn rOng~ hAi~ luCkilY still haVe Ce|eSte! bUt she hAs to woRk.. maybe that will be the time to settle down... like staying at home to rOt!

vEry anXious abOut my advanCed thEory rEsulTs!

kRïStå wAnTs to sLeEp aGaiN


if i ain't got you|1:19 PM|





aH sIanZ~~~ diD try to change mY b|oG coVer.. but I think it still sucks~ sTill have to dO sOmeThings.. hAi~ somE thinGs arE still not wOrKing~ buT gEt iT dOne soOn! rEmEmbeR to seE K!!!


if i ain't got you|12:23 AM|



Tuesday, June 10, 2003



sO mAny cHangeS iN my fRiEnDs' b|oGs.. but my is still the same.. as simple as ever.. well.. dun hAve the mood to change or rather duN even boTher to changE~ hehe.. maybE nExt Time.. when I am too siAnz.. or too frEe. uNtiL now I still haven't got the time! =) I juZ dunNoe why... I feel that I've spent this terM holidayS frUiTfUlly.. maybe I madE full uSe of my tiMe.. alSo, no schOol comMitments like the paSt.. naH~ I duN like to bring scHoOl activites into my holidays.. if I did.. it won't be called school holiDays riTe? nOw I am downLoading kaZaA.. yapZ~ Downloaded iMesh already, but there are some files I couldn't find.. is like kinda limited. sO I tried kAzAa, thinking that more files will be available coZ more ppl downloaded kaZaA. fOund the moviE "Speed" the other time.. didn't want to buy it coZ it is still expensive, $12++! yEah.. noT worTh it hOr? aLthouGh kEanu rEeves is my idOl but I don't see the reason why I should spend so muCh on oNe vCd which had shown for manY yeArs ago~ mAybe.. mayBe if I have more $$$, then I will buY it. nOw I am b|ogging.. hoping that I will not fall asleep cOZ I am really feeling tirEd, although I have 4 hoUrs of nAp!

Let me upDate you mY dRivIng lEssOns.. well nothing muCh.. juZ that my U-tUrNs are imProVing.. wEll.. it might sound easy for some of you.. but to me.. oH hEll.. I am scared of drivIng.. especially of the cArs and bUses on the roaDs.. aLso.. I beginning to hatE taxiS.. their driving aH.. or rather.. they have no courtesY in dRivIng.. I really do hope I can drivE sooN and I really dread the daY I am going to take my teSt... I know I am gonnA screw it up.. mY adVace theoRy tEst resuLts are coming out sooN.. so iS sHanNen.. so we are all waiting.. if pAsS.. then gOoD lorhz! I knOw when sChOol reopens.. I will still be at my drivIng leSsons.. well cOz I booked extrA.. I not expert mahZ.. then I juZ wannA practicE more loHz~

hAi~ never see yaZuka for one dAy and I feel that I miSs him a great deAl.. don't know when will I be seeing him sooN.. hope that iT is reaL sOoN! nIte eVeryOne!


if i ain't got you|12:45 AM|



Monday, June 09, 2003



I've sO mAny tHinGs to fiLL yOu iN* wE||, I will try to make it as breif as possible. yEsterdAy was mY fIrsT dAy to gO fiShing. I went with yaZuka, hIs daD and hiS aUnt. I've caught 2 fiShes! wE||, but small oneS lahz.. not too baD for begInNers riTe? kInda like it.. quite fUn.. would like to try again in future! tHen fater a ling daY of fiShIng, we went for dInNer in a hAwKer cEnter then after that his dAd sent uS hOme.. but thaT's not the end! wE wenT to gEylAng and ate duRian and sOya bEan! yA knOw in gEylaNg, there is a vEry fAmoUs soyA bEan sTall ritE? bUt tO me.. I find that the food there so so only.. nothing mucH. oH yAh.. waNna recommand you all somethinG. yA know mAxWell mArkEt? yaPz.. there is a porriage stall which sells very gooD poRriage.. I love the tofU and raW fiSh over there.. you all should try some time!

I've realised that I still have quite a number of activities ahead.. still learning driving as usual but still have to meet up with a few more peoPle.. oNe is bErniCe, my chilDhooD frieNd. sHe can hardly go out and we only can meet a few times in a yeAr? yA lOr.. so have to meet her this holidaYs.. aLso.. chenG kWeE..his biRthday coMing and I still oWe him a movie.. yApz.. he is going to aRmy soOn.. so have to meet up aLso.. tOmorRow.. going to meet up with the giRls again.. yApz.. going to kTv again loRhz! bUt it is fuN to go with tHem! hEhehe.. tHen afTer that gO wIndow sHoPping.

I've yet to e-mAil bEnjAmIn.. telling him about the dInNer.. have to huRrY!

hAi~ Later got driVing leSson again.. very tired mAn.. slept for 4 hoUrs jUz now.. but still abit drowsy~ sIanZ.. K laH.. got to go and eat my dInNer.. SeE ya lAter!!


if i ain't got you|6:57 PM|



Friday, June 06, 2003



wEnt ouT witH LinDy and yAn rOng today... I toT I waS the latest cOz wE wErE suppose to meet at 1100 and I woke up at 1030.. buT I was the earliest in the end.. boTh of thEm ovErslept.. yAn rOng woke up at 1130! wOh~ anYwaY.. we went to visIt ce|esTe's working place.. chatted with her quite long.. and we were all discussing about the jaPan tRip this dEc.. all of them seem so eaGer and anXious.. mE too.. I wAnNa gO with thEm.. but have to ask parents loRhz. iT will bE fUn going with them yA knoW. aFter that, I went hOme and wEnt swiMming wif my sister.. we really had great fun.. tried lotsA of stunts in the waTer..hOhOhO... then her stamina was like damn bAd.. she was alreadY tired after swimming onE lAp! aLso.. when we go home.. she wanted to take a cAb cOz she was too tired.. and ya know what.. the pool and my house is about only 10 minUtes walking distance awaY!

hEy.. when I jUmpEd inTo dA pOol... my swiMming pants aLmost came out.. hahah.. hMm... gotta go and rest liao.. I am damN tired... tomorrow still got early driVing leSson.. somemore 2 LesSons! cYa~


if i ain't got you|9:52 PM|



Thursday, June 05, 2003



jUz cAme bAcK fRom A sWiM.. pHew~ well... for a while only lahz..hEy it is bOrEd to swim alone.. hehe.. yApz.. tomorrow going to have a swim with my sIs again.. mAybe mEeTing yAn Rong and LiNdy tomorrow.. cOz tomorrow is yAn rOng's biRthDay.. hUrRay! a|| of us are turning 18! hmm.. I siao~ sorry! mUz exErciSe more and sTart to trAin my stamina. wHy? sO that nexT timE I can have sEx for hOurs and hoUrs! aCtiVe seX life! hEy! jUz joKinG! =) (bUt actUally quite true... mUz stArt bUilDing up stamIna Liao! sHeSsH...)

tOday my driving inStuRcutor told me one of his encOuntErs.. he said he had one trainee.. iS a gIrl.. iT bEgIns like this.. sHe sUdDenly said she wanted to stop the cAr.. and mR tEo askEd her y, she saId she had to fArt! mR tEo wAs shocked as she really opened the car dorr.. place her butT outside the cAr and fArTed.. she lAUghed.. then after a while.. she burpeD very loudly.. mR tEo said "waD are u trying to dO? U are a Girl.. you should not do this in puBlic!" she anSwErEd, " We girls are human too.. we girls don't fart meh? aLso I have too much wind in me..".. hAhaa.. that's weird? a|so.. I told him that my buTt is pain.. he looked at me in a funNy way and said" uRm.. okie? bUt I can't rub for you.. ask ur bF to do it." hE aLso said that my bUtT may be too big that's Y sit until pAin.. bUt I said my bUtT is sMaLL. sO when I got off the car and walked back to the center.. he sAid out loud, "oKie! yOu have a smaLL buTt.. conFirm!" anD gave a smiLe.. I smilEd back at him.. boY! LEsSons could be so interesting!

lAsT nIght, I wenT tO yAzUka's dAd relatiVes hOusE to eat dinner.. woh.. I am getting to know his whole family soon. I gueSs it is a biT too faSt.. isn't it? sHoUld noTe thiS to hIm I gUess.. also.. he uRged me to go into one of the jeWelLery shops too.. tO loOk at the rinGs or sOmethIng. I dunNoe waD is hE tryIng to do.. bUt I finD it very wEird.. I told hIm "next tIme" politely. hEhe.. well.. that's all for now..

kRïStå wAnTs to sLiM dOwn !!!!!


if i ain't got you|7:54 PM|



Wednesday, June 04, 2003



yEstErdAy.. wE ceLebraTed yAn rOng's birthday.. well.. went to ktV again.. but iT is not our original pLan. tHe origina| plan is to watch brUcE aLmiGhTy and go for winDow shoPping.. but someone insisted to gO kTv... like that lor.. then I have to misS the movie cOz I haD dRivIng leSsons. iT is okie.. I will be going to watch that moVie with yAzuKa later. lAte laSt nighT.. I was chaTting with ce|este and we were toking about how should we fully utilize her dAys oFfs as she only can off for every tUesday? cOz he past two offS sucks.. so we plan ahead.. aNd I think thiS is a good time when tHe girLs and I can be together. nExT tUes.. planning to go juRong wAter workS and windOw shopping.. then nexT nExt tues.. planning to go kayyaking and luNcH first , then mayBe neXt nExt nExt tUes going to biG spLasH and gO to "fish and cO" to hAve ouR dinNer. wE||.. reaLly looking forward to those dayS. I am glad that our holIdays are about 2 mthS coz I guess these are the only times when my sEconDary scHooL fRiEnds & I can get together.. otherwise when scH reopens.. we have to study and our time tables doesn't matCh. ThIs hoLiday.. I feel that I am closer with my sEc Sch friends.. especially.. ceLeSte, yAn rOng and LinDy.. I feel that it is a good sign and we have changed much.. like the topics we tAlked and the things we do together.. they are moRe "oN" than usUal.. yEap.. really.. normally the friends you are with in sEconDary sCh dAys miGht bE your frienDs for life and we are keeping up to that.. I lOve yOu gUys!!! aS muCh as I love keAnu rEeVes.. but love you all abit more lahz! hahahahha!!! fOr yiShan(kAte) and jOvin.. well.. still abit not sO steady.. cOz fOr yisHan.. never meet for a very long time liao.. cOz she is too buSy with her sTuff.. jOvin too.. it is juZ that.. somE of us are kinda piSsEd off with her behaviour.. hAi~ mAybe we should tell her one day.. dUn ya tHink guYs? hmm... gOnNa meeT yazuKa at 2 but I am still typing rUbBish here.. heheh.. dUnNoe y.. mY heart tellS me to be late and leave at 1.55pm.. coZ that's when the bus will leave from the station.. I will take about 15-20 minUtes to reach there.. so migHt be late for about 15 minUtes only lAhz.. k Lah.. gotta get ready liao. cYa pEoPle!


if i ain't got you|1:43 PM|



Tuesday, June 03, 2003



tOday.. I've learnt a few things.. about friendship and love.. tHere's no eternal in both of them.. it is juz bullshit.. true love comes from parents and no one else (mayBe it doesn't apply to all).. cAn't really accept the fact.. bUt that's wad I really start to think. vEry hArd to really find bEsT fRiEnds and a |ifE partner.. dUn yOu all think? tHose lucky onEs might meet many people before they got a chance to experience true love from someOne... but moSt of them dun have the chance to experience it at all.. iF all of you take ur time to think back.. think who is really true to you.. sOme oF them can't even think of one? wHy? mAnkInd are selfish, they dunNoe wad they want and end up hurting others.. aNd this applies to me too.. oF coz. sO now.. I will juz put myself into someone's shoeS watEvEr I do.. waTever I think. mAke a world a bettA place eh? hAve lotsa things to say.. buT I juZ dunNoe how to put into words.. it sUcks alriGht. yEah~

wOrLd pEace!


if i ain't got you|8:18 PM|





gOt mY reSulTs |iao.. sIanz lOr... everyone notice my weak poInt.. tHe "C". It is an eye soRe yA kNow.. nOt tHat I wanted it.. bUt I juZ gOt a C..but it is expected one lorhz..never fail, I already happy enough. Hmm.. I aM not going to say my results here.. heheh.. cOz I normally dun saY to many peOple.. :) bUt also nothing gReat to know.. the "C" is jaVa pRojEct lahz.. wad else.. I am going to tell myself that I am not going to have any "C" in my cert anymore. yEah.. minimum only "B".. wIsh mE lUck. bUt seriously speaking.. I got better than what I've expected.. dUnNoe whY.
oKie.. enough of this bullshit (kEanu rEeVes loves to say that)...
yIshaN mEsSgaed me lAst nIght and told me tat she is leaving home.. I don't know what's wrong with her... Can she juz not be stubborn for a while? cAn she |isten to pPL's advices for a change? sHe always has been regreting for what she had done in her whole damN life.. Y cAn't she see that? wE||.. I really do hope she will come her her senses aSaP.. I know is like when she wants to do it.. no one can stop her.. bUt do yA know sOmetHing? she dun hAve the $ and dOn't know where to staY... doesN't have a conrete pLan.. kAoz.. duNnoe lAhz..
hOlidayS are still long.. I am going for my dRivIng lessOns as usual.. then later meeting tHe giR|s.. cElEbratIng yAn rOng's bIrthDay! yEah..



if i ain't got you|10:08 AM|



Monday, June 02, 2003



yoZ... I juZ came home from a bBq~ lOwEr sEconDary eX c|assmAtes gatHering..hehe.. we talked alot and mentioned alot of fUn mEmoriEs~ hEhe.. how I wish to go back to sEcOndAry sChoOL dAys.. I mean I still prefer during the times when I was in Sec one and two. yEap.. bEfore that.. I watched sWeet nOveMbEr. hE is sO sWeEt but at the start he is kinda stucK uP..haha but too bad.. he didn't got together with the girl cOz she has canCer.. sO iT juZ ended like that. tOday juZ watched another round of maTrix with my sIster. wOh~ I knew the story better after watching part one. aFter the moVie.. my siS and I stayEd back and waited for the maTrIx revolutions tRailer. dAmn cOoL! muZ wAtCh! tHen.. tomorrow might be going swimming.. hehhee muZ sliM doWn liAo.. eRnest said he wanted to accompany me.. bUt dunNoe he wants anot.. anyway.. sti|| got LinDy..hehehe. tOmoRrow cOnfirM.. tIred now.. luCkIly tomorroW's dRiving leSson is not in the early morning.. or elSe.. diE~hahaha!

oH yAh.. another thing.. mY fRiends and I took the last train back.. woh.. we rAn.. and we were all panting away.. almost misSed the lasT traiN.. luCkiLy.. pHew~



if i ain't got you|12:53 AM|